Janet Conner (author of Writing Down Your Soul) remembers her spiritual encounter with the angel,Margo Mastromarchi.
in which an angel reminds me who I really am–and who you really are
Friends, soul writers, mystics, and lovers of prayer,
I turned in the manuscript for Writing Down Your Soul on November 11, 2007. For a couple weeks, I sat in my soul writing chair and stared at the wall.
I know now that this is a normal response to completing a 70,000-word book. But at the time, I thought there was something wrong with me. I had zero energy or desire to do anything. And yet, at the same time, I knew I better get crackin’ and start making some money.
But back then, I had no intensives to plan, no courses to promote, no writing assignments to complete. And consequently, no income. I was surviving on the final smatterings of human resource consulting work and trying desperately to figure out how to make a living as a writer.
I needed help.
So I scheduled an angel consultation with Margo Mastromarchi. I had no idea what happens in an angel consultation, but I showed up with a few questions. The big one was “How am I going to make a living?”
I asked my question and Margo delivered an angel’s answer in a gentle voice, “You don’t understand how important this book is.”
That sure didn’t feel like an answer to me, so I tried again, “But how am I going to make a living?”
Margo delivered the answer in a slightly louder voice, “You don’t understand how important this book is.”
Clearly this angel wasn’t getting the idea. So, I tried once more. And I might have gotten a little louder too. “You’re probably right, but HOW am I going to make a LIVING!”
This time the angel responded in a loud, masculine, enormous voice that practically shook the room: “YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND HOW IMPORTANT THIS BOOK IS!”
I lost it. I mean really. Aren’t angels in tune with the big picture, the great wisdom. Don’t they want to help us.
Why would an angel—an angel, for heaven’s sake!—refuse to help me with my most critical need.
I stood up. I shouted: “OK, OK, I DON’T UNDERSTAND HOW IMPORTANT THIS BOOK IS! I DON’T! BUT HOW I’M GOING TO MAKE A LIVING!”
The angel’s voice got very soft, so soft I had to lean in to hear it. The angel said, “You are a lily.”
I sat back down and cried.
I know the story. You probably know it too. When someone asked Yeshua how they were going to survive, he answered, “Consider the lilies how they grow: they toil not, they spin not; and yet I say unto you, Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.”
So, I didn’t get an answer that day. Not one that laid out an a, b, c plan. But I got something better. I received a reminder that I was given the contract to write Writing Down Your Soul for a reason. A holy reason.
And having said yes to that, all I had to do was walk in trust that as I do the work I am here to do, I am safe, guided, protected, and taken care of.
Well, I took those steps in trust. And now, as I prepare for the relaunch of Writing Down Your Soul with her fresh new cover, gorgeous endorsements, foreword by Dawn Montefusco, and introduction by me telling the story of the man who crashed my first book signing, I find myself giggling as Michael’s enormous voice reverberates once more throughout my house:
You don’t understand how important this book is!
I laugh and say: Oh Michael, you’re so right. I didn’t understand. I didn’t. But now, looking at the wild, creative, miraculous life I have enjoyed since our verbal wrestling match, I can attest that you gave me brilliant advice. You told me what I needed to remember then, and what I still need to remember every day. I am a lily.
A lily held in the most holy hands. The hands of my precious divine Voice. The Voice I have spoken with every day for over 24 years. The Voice that has guided me every step of the way.
To ensure I never forget, Michael’s words float above my computer:
As I write this newsletter, I look up and speak them aloud. And remember.
I am a lily. And so, precious reader, are you.
To help you find your way walking in trust in communion with your divine Voice, I’ve created a new page for Writing Down Your Soul filled with gifts to help you activate that exquisite divine Voice that awaits you.
The gifts include videos on:
- How to enter the theta brain wave state
- Where and when you can experience theta
- How to recognize the Voice
Plus two PDFS
- fresh update of the 30-day Guide to Writing Down Your Soul
- two of my prayers as a prayer artist
It’s an overstuffed birthday gift bag! And it’s yours at:
to remembering who we really are!
How to Activate and Listen to the Extraordinary Voice Within
Transform journal-writing from self-reflection into divine dialogue. Janet Conner is a writer, poet, and spiritual field guide, but first and always a deep soul explorer. Since she discovered how to activate a divine Voice by slipping into the theta brain wave state (the border between the conscious and the subconscious) while writing, Janet has dedicated herself to exploring and sharing what it means to live at the vibrant intersection of the visible and the invisible.
Your healing inner voice. After hitting rock bottom while escaping domestic abuse, Janet’s inner voice told her to start writing. As she wrote, she gained clarity and strength, and felt an incredible connection to the divine. Miracles began to happen. Today, research scientists are providing peeks into consciousness and how it works. Their findings give intriguing clues about what is happening in and through our bodies, minds, and spirits as we roll pen across paper. Writing Down Your Soul explores this research and instructs how to access the power and beauty of our deepest selves.